Spectrummy Mummy

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Wish List

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I have a Wish List on Amazon.  It has 15 items on it, and honestly,  I could live without them all.  There are cookbooks of recipes my family can’t eat.  There are exercise videos I don’t have time to do.  There are photography hobbyist books I’ll never read, preferring to capture the moment rather than set up the perfect shot.  Cubby’s wish list has 85.  Pudding’s list features 310 items.  I know, it is outrageous.  Why does her list have so many more than his?  Because she has been on this planet longer, and I have been adding to it all this time.  Why so many things?  It is a glutton’s list.  Think of the greed of it when some children don’t have shelter, or food, or clean water, or good health.  We don’t need the things on there.  I don’t add to these lists thinking that somebody will get these things for them.  I see something I like and I put it on there.  It is like window shopping for geeks.  Windows shopping, snigger.

It is my fantasy.  My list of what I’d get if money or know object.  Or my list of what I’d like other people to get that is developmentally appropriate.  There are things big and small on that list, from $2 touchable bubbles (a sensory delight!) to a ridiculous $7000 mahogany rocking horse (hey, far be it from me to stop you spending your lottery winnings on my children).  Not pretty but breakable china tea sets that would be broken in minutes.  Not adorable, but incredibly hard to manipulate items for those with fine motor skills issues.  Amazon, oh so smart, knows me.  It knows that if like certain items I’ll also like these ones, and it greets me on my very own page with recommendations.  My own personal shopper, who knows my (Windows) shopping habits better than I know myself.  It tells me about products that benefit kids with special needs.  And I add, add, add it on and tell myself one day we’ll get it.  We’ll tell the grandparents to buy it.  Most of the stuff just stays there, of course.  Much as I might desire a Bodysox or an indoor swing to help with sensory integration, nobody who knows our kids can overcome that tendency to do whatever will put instant smiles on their faces.  Trucks and dolls it is, then.

I have another Wish List too.  On it is Cubby having the words to tell me he is hungry, and what he would like to eat.  It is Pudding being able to articulate why there are some nights she screams out (In terror?  In pain?) and why there are other night she sleeps soundly through, though we haven’t done anything different.  On it is Daddy coming back safely from his trip to Afghanistan.  On it is Pudding being able to hold a pen properly, and ride a tricycle.  On it is my kids making friends, or having a conversation together just because, telling jokes we all understand.  On it is getting an onward assignment that will be good for the entire family.  On it is Cubby being able to calm himself down when things don’t go his way.  On it is awareness and acceptance for everybody who is a little different.  On it is Pudding dealing with a change of plan calmly.  On it is Cubby drinking from a cup.  On it is my friend-I-haven’t-yet met getting well, winning her battle.  There is plenty more on that list, some big things, some small.

This list isn’t one of gluttony, though it sure might look it to those dealing with more than we are, and I know some of you are dealing with much, much more.   And to others it seems like the most basic of demands, coming in right after food, clean water and shelter.  Unlike the Amazon list though, I want everything on it, and I’ll do everything I can to get them.

One more thing: some of those wishes are going to be fulfilled.  I know, because some of them already have been.  Every time one of those wishes gets fulfilled, I add another one, letting my hopes move forward, one wish at a time.  We have already come so far, and we’re going to go much further.  I know it.

Amazon has nothing to do with it.

Welcome home Spectrummy Daddy, you were missed.















What is on your wish list?

Written by Spectrummy Mummy

October 14, 2010 at 7:30 am

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  1. Oh hon, I am so right there with you on your non-Amazon wish list – there’s so many things on my non-store related wish list that I want/need for my Honey Boy that I can only hope will happen in due time. I can only offer you a huge commiserating hug and let you know that I’m here for you 🙂

    Kathy Murray

    October 14, 2010 at 3:16 pm

  2. So exciting to have seen the blog celebrities Pudding and Cubby! Great post and great pics of them with Spectrummy Daddy


    October 14, 2010 at 4:01 pm

    • I know- I should have had Pudding sign her autograph for you now that she can (just about) write her name! Was great to see you!


      October 14, 2010 at 7:41 pm

  3. “Every time one of those wishes gets fulfilled, I add another one, letting my hopes move forward, one wish at a time. We have already come so far, and we’re going to go much further. I know it.”

    Yes. Love this!


    October 15, 2010 at 8:56 am

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