Nothing is ever straightforward for us, but I’m really hoping tomorrow will be.
As part of our ongoing investigations into Pudding’s sleeping problems (which are, of course, also our sleeping problems) we went last week to visit an ENT.
After observing her scarred and over-sized tonsils, the doctor recommended removing her tonsils and adenoids, as soon as possible. He could fit us in for tomorrow, so we went ahead and booked her in.
Seems pretty straight forward, doesn’t it?
It wasn’t. I mentioned to the doctor my ongoing bleeding problems, and he recommended we do some pre-op testing just to be on the safe side. The tests revealed abnormalities, indicating more tests, and ultimately leaving us with more questions than answers.
It seems our lot in life is to be in this position. Never knowing if we are doing right from wrong, because the data is so inconclusive. Would this surgery help Pudding? Or will we do more harm than good?
I’ve said before that I’m glad there is no guide book to raising a child like Pudding. Sometimes I think that we do our best learning together, often by trying the wrong thing. Still, on days like these, I wish we had some kind of cheat sheet. It is a simple procedure, on a complex human being.
Usually, when I’m mulling something over, I find some peace in the quiet of the night, after the children are in bed. But Pudding doesn’t sleep soundly, even when she does sleep. So tomorrow we try surgery. We’ll keep on asking questions, and maybe we’ll get some answers.
I just don’t expect them to be straightforward. But maybe, if we’re very lucky, tomorrow will be.