Spectrummy Mummy

Asperger's, Allergies, and Adventures Abroad

Posts Tagged ‘chain letters

Downbeat Funk

with 16 comments

I was thinking that if you asked me what my mood was at the moment- downbeat funk is the way to describe it.  Then I realized I like that expression, and it would be a great name for a band, if I had inherited my dad’s musical talent.  It is that kind of low, where even if someone does something nice for me, I somehow manage to turn it around, and become a killjoy.  There really isn’t much hope, until the holding pattern that our lives are in right now allows us to move on.  I tell you though, we are strapped in and ready to take off.

One of my bloggy friends nominated my blog to receive this award:

http://lifewithasperger.files.wordpress.com/2010/09/flattery-award.jpg

That was really nice of her.  I love reading her blog, she is smart and witty and it gives me insight into the mysterious workings of the Aspie brain.  I’m then supposed to nominate 7 other blogs I read, and then tell you in my blog 7 things about myself.  Now I’m stuck, because I’m in a downbeat funk and I just don’t feel like playing!  If I don’t though, I’ll 1) hurt people’s feelings and 2) violate a blogging convention.  The thought of doing either of those puts me in a worse mood.  Everybody else followed suit, and I’m left like the odd one out, maintaining internet silence, and wondering once again why I sometimes refuse to cooperate?  So I suppose I  should just play along.  Shouldn’t I?  It would certainly consume less energy than what I’m about to write.

I don’t mean to be such a misery, I feel the same way about those email forward things, or those things on Facebook that command action of me.  You know, those “you’re-a-true-friend-now-send-this-back-to-me-and-20-other-friends-or-I’ll-think-you-don’t-care” type of things.  I NEVER do those.  Not ever.  You could be my very best friend, or someone I haven’t seen in almost 20 years, or never met at all, and my reaction is the same.  There must be a lot of people who think I don’t care, but the reverse is true.  I get excited to hear from somebody, only to discover it is a generic forward.  Am I the only one?  Can’t you just send me a personal message?  Can’t I tell you that I like you in my way, and not be obliged to do it on your terms?  There are ones where I’m dictated to click “like” if I love my mother, or husband, or kids.  It makes me want to scream!  If the only way my family know that I love them is through clicking a “like” button, I’m doing something seriously wrong.  We used to have chain letters when I was a child, and I never did those either.  Now with the internet, these things have gone viral, and I refuse to participate.  I will do things on my own terms or not at all!  If I had more time and energy, I’d mount a campaign against these things, they enrage me so very much.

Wow, the rage.  Of course, this isn’t really about the blogging award.  This is about going through a period of time where lots of things are out of my control, and my little blog, my sanctuary, is where I get to have things on my terms.  So, I’ll tell you this:

I don’t read many other blogs than the ones on my blogroll, which I do need to update to reflect a couple of the newer ones I’ve started to read lately.  Those are the blogs I recommend, I refuse to say if I like some more than others, as on different days they touch me in different ways.  So I won’t give you 7 blogs to read, just read my blogroll if you choose to do so.  Or don’t, I won’t make you!

I also won’t tell you 7 things about myself here.  In fact, this misanthropic post probably reveals more about me than 7 factoids could tell you.

I also won’t give anyone else this award, or forward an email, or make you click “like” on something.

I will comment on your blog if I like what you wrote.  I will add you to my blogroll (sooner or later) if I like your work.

I will also try really, really hard to get out of my downbeat funk, so that I can respond with the grace that a thoughtful gesture deserves, but I’m not making any promises at the moment.

Written by Spectrummy Mummy

September 27, 2010 at 10:17 am