Spectrummy Mummy

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I don’t want to

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I don’t want to write about what is happening today.

I don’t want to say that I am taking Pudding to a psychiatrist.  I never wanted to say that.

I don’t want to return to the place she was first diagnosed, then acquired more diagnoses, one for every year of her life.

I don’t want to see the receptionist with her brittle smile.  I don’t want her to hand me more forms.

I don’t want to hand over another piece of my child’s care to a stranger.  I don’t want to admit that she needs more help than we have been giving her.

I don’t want to change her.  I don’t want to hurt her.

I don’t want to cry.  I don’t want to go.

But I will.

Because I promised her I’d always be there, and I’d do anything for her.  Even when I don’t want to.

Written by Spectrummy Mummy

June 14, 2011 at 12:02 pm